8th Anniversary

8 years ago yesterday, we decided to end our courtship.
We united as husband & wife.
At that time no one gives us any advise on marriage.
We both based on our parents marriage as an example to start ours.
Along the way, there're hiccups. We don't understand why we couldnt agree with each other's perception of marriage.

Now looking back, we both have grown & matured. We've our own expectation of what kind of marriage we want rather than comparing it w our parents'.

Dami brought me to Villa Bali for a simple evening on our 8th anniversary.
I'm more than happy. It doesnt matter where we go what we eat to celebrate this very special day. I'm already v grateful that after all these years, after some of those silly mistakes I've made, we are still growing strong.

I'm indeed blessed! Thank you God.

This Abs

This is the abs I'm working towards.

For Christmas Party on 25th Dec 2005.

This is my goal for the next 3 months.

An Attitude Of Gratitude

Being grateful enlarge, enrich & empower life.
Lack of gratitude, most people are blinded to God's gift.
It is not uncommon to meet people who share this same attitude: "What is there to be grateful for?" Which is quite sad.

Quote the following example:

You've an extra movie ticket. You ask a friend, who says, "Why you call me so late? What show it is? Why dont you have tickects for the other show, I'm not so keen on this one. Only one ticket? I want to bring someone. Where is it? So far away? I don't know, it's so troublesome. You come and pick me up, lah"

Completely devoid of gratitude.

An attitude of gratitude can positively affect your self, relationships, even health.
Have a gratitude journal. Every morning write 5 things that we are grateful for & every night write 5 things we are thankful for that happened during that day.

Grateful people not only benefit their mental health. They take of their physical health too.
Gratitude is essential in helping humans cope w stress.
Stress can make us seriously ill, being linked to the leading causes of death like heart disease & cancer.

A grateful heart also corresponds w an optimistic outlook - boosts immune system.
A grateful heart focuses on what it has, not what it lacks.

Summarised from an article in a local mag.

Already There

"To bring anything into your life, imagine that it's already there"

-Richard Bach-

Imagine

"Let your imagination run riot, and your life will be a mess.
Control it & you change your life in accordance with your will"

Human Spirit

Learn from winning & losing.
When you win, you learn to remain humble & to respect your fellow competitors.
When you are defeated, you need to pick yourself up & try harder the next time.

Be totally committed, put in alot of hard work & be prepared to make alot of sacrifices in the process of trying to achieve excellence.

- Annabel Pennefather

What Drives You?

Is it love, money, power, compassion, fear?
Each one of us is guided by different motivations, some external, some intrinsic.
But external pressures or rewards are never as effective as the impetus that come from within.
Some people call this PASSION.

It is easy to say that one has a passion for this or that.
But passion is, at core, an emotion.
It gives us a reason to act & helps motivate action but it has its peaks & slumps.
You cannot depend on just passion alone to keep a cause going.
Passion can be drained by so many things:
- negative feedback & competing demands & etc..

It is admirable for some to put their passion into action.

To stay motivated, one needs to rekindle this 'feeling' of passion every day.

Read the above from a local mag.

Deprive

yes i am deprive from blogging!
so many many days no time to blog!
this has been a crazy week!

mon-accompanied apple for eye check-up

tue-boss thinks i'm losing focus @ work. redo my hair colour.

wed-boss had a lousy meeting the day before regarding service level of one of our co appointed partner. bcos of that he asked to do a daily counts for the last 6 mths = Est. 180 days! my eyes were crossed @ the end of every evening! attended wedding dinner @ marriot. dinner started @ 9pm! oh God! Got home @ 12am. dami was hungry but have to wait for me to get home to cook instant mee for him. i suspect i have super natural power that make the noodle tastes nicer....

thu-another day of manual count....ahahah....i feel like pulling my hair off. dept mtg ended late. sudden realise i hv a deadline to rush for the next day, damn! a colleague gave me a ride home but driving @ 70-80km/hr on 3rd lane....zzzzzzzzz..by the time i got home almost 9pm. i was so tired i almost fall asleep while bathing.

fri-whole day was rush rush rush...trying to meet deadline.after work visited momo & kawai w vv. celebrated momo's bday. hobbes v sweet. got momo crabtree & evelyn hamper. she was so touched, almost tear she said. white banana came too. surprise surprise. he even showed bearbear the gold toilet seat pix he took in dubai. comic came too. wow that's another surprise. she hasnt been around for awhile since b4 momo's wedding. by the time we merried; i got home almost 12am......so exhausted! but what's worst, the power shut twice when i tried to on the aircon! SHIT! SHIT! WHY ME? i've to sleep w the fan on instead & dami isnt home w me & my PIL went to cruise. i was home alone...booboo.

i'm deprive from hvin ME time. from jotting down my tots....

Sleepy Post

@ work:-
What happen when your boss say he thinks you loses focus @ work?
Die liao lor

@ home:-
Every rooms are filled with junks, how?
Siao liao lor

On the street:-
Strong wind & rain start to pour, how I feel?
Christmas lor

@ 11.42pm:-
Why I talk like that?
Sleepy liao lor

Ok - Good night.

p.s. Please pray for a little baby (less than 1 month old) in Spain fighting for her life. Mommy's name is Cyn. She's a friend of mine. Thank you. God Bless you.

Screaming

Today Momo screamed @ me.
And I screamed back.
I was angry with her for screaming.
I don't know why she has been so short-tempered.
And I really dislike being screamed @.

I spoke to Apple about it.
Apple said she's probably tired & lots of worries + Kawai in hospital + Hobbes not in town.
I understand her stress but I find that she shouldnt always want things her way.

Just like yesterday, she denied asking me to take the magazine from the clinic. I remembered clearly she said it's ok because I was quite reluntant to take the magazines @ 1st worrying it's not right & she reassured me that the magazines are given away free. Our conversation got quite heated up.

On the norm, I would have reacted mildly but when the other party come on to hard, I would react defensively.

Of cos I dont feel good being pissed with her. I just don't know how I can bring it up to her. I'm quite hurt too.....boo boo

Jaundice

Baby Kawai has Jaundice.
She was admitted to hospital for 1 day.
Tomorrow Momo will bring her home.

Nurse told Momo that Kawai's healthy & active.
She drank lots of milk & poo poo 3x.
Tonight Momo will be able to have a good night rest w/o having to wake up inthe middle of the night.

God please bless little Kawai.

Happy Birthday Pucca

Tomorrow is Pucca's birthday.
She has decided to pamper herself.
Enjoy being a 'tai tai' for a day.
Changing her hairstyle & do madi/padi.

I'm sure she's gonna look beautiful when she return to work on Wed.
A brand new chapter, a brand new image, a brand new mood.
She has listed it down the things she wants to do.
Good girl. There's absolutely no reason why she could not succeed!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Bring It On

"The best way to make your dream come true is to wake up"

= Thinking positively is the key to change how you respond to negative situations

= See the situation as a challenge rather than a crisis

= It will switch your thoughts to problem-solving rather than problem-obsessing

= When bad times are coming thick & fast, the way through is mind over matter

= When trouble hits & you feel you can't cope, take a deep breath

= Ensure that you, and not your emotions, are in control

= So you must calm down let your "thinking brain start working"

= Restore your self-esteem so you can cope with any setback quickly & effectively

= Shake yourself out of your "Why me?" moment to get things into perspective

= Tell yourself you'll handle it, whatever. It will change your mood instantly

= When you're feeling more in control mentally

= You can maintain this attitude by identifying uplifting things or people in your life

= Changing your environment is crucial - if you're at work - leave the office

= Have lunch/Call a friend

= Once calm down, face the fact, not the reasons behind them

= It's important to look @ what you can learn to help change the way you think forever

= There's always something to be learned, which in turn, will empower you by giving you self-awareness

= Staying positive - In times of trauma, it's easy to slip into your default 'poor me' mode

= Being prepare for the future doesnt mean sitting around & worrying about things that havent happened & probably won't

= Living in the moment & expecting the best means you too, will become one of those 'lucky' people

= The new, positive you is simply prepared for whatever life throws @ you

= Bring it on!

Monday @ Home

Hmm...another cold wet rainy morning.
Look like it's gonna to rain the whole day today :)
Luckily I took a day off today; I can pretty much enjoy the cold air from outside the window now while creating this post.

Momo is bring Kawai out for the 1st time since returning home from hospital. Kawai is going for her 1st injection. Oh...poor thing, hope she would cry too much.

Bearbear took leave too. Hence it's gonna be a family outing again haha except morning he will drive Momo to clinic & after to NUH w Apple & me.

Wonder has the Noel staff make the delivery to our office already. Tempted to call back office.....

Mooncake Festival

Bearbear & Apple are very happy that we went over for dinner tonight.
It's the 1st time Dami see Kawai. I could see his joy too :)

All of us were happily enjoying dinner together except for Hobbes who's far away in Switzerland for business trip.

Tomorrow have to accompany Apple for her eyes check-up @ NUH. I've taken 1 day off.

Saw Pucca's blog, seems like she needed more time to recover from the wound that deeply hurt her. I really wish I could do more or know more on how I could support her.

Two days ago, I heard from Momo that 1 of our friend who has recently given birth in early Sep. Her baby was almost 2 months pre-mature. Doctor found a vein that's connecting blood circulation isn't fully developed. Afraid that the lack of blood circulation might damage the baby's brain, she was operated 3 days after birth. The doctor can only tell whether there's any brain damage 14 days after the ops.

I felt sad hearing the news. I know how much pain a parent has to go through to see their little one suffer. As I look @ Kawai, so small & frail, I just want to do all the best to protect & love her.

I can only pray for my friend in Spain that her daughter would be fine.

Dami's leg is recovering. He has gone out to meet his pal for a drink @ Villa Bali.
I'm @ home watching my fav show, CSI. I was alittle upset that my dream of being a mom didnt come true this month. I want to take a break. I'm quite affected each time it occur. As the months passes, my disappointment increased. I dont think Dami feels how I feel. But I dont to over stress him by constantly showing him my disappointment.

Afterall there's nothing much he can do beside quitting smoking & cut drinking. I better leave it to GOD.

Now the radio is playing "Last Kiss" by Pearl Jam. It reminds me of that evening I went drinking w Foong Foong @ East Side.

No matter what, I'm still counting my blessings. Thank you God for everything I have & enjoy & experience today. Thank you!

Happy Mooncake Festival.
Bearbear said "next mooncake festival, Kawai can carry lantern le" haha, happy grand-dad!

Wash Hair Anyone?

Article in Urban - 8 Sep 05

About of 3 women who do not wash their hair - oh I mean they have someone to wash for them. All the 3 women stopped washing their own hair for more than 10 over years (the longest is 28 years).

One of them is a customer service officer who has thick long hair, in her late 20s spend $300 monthly to have her hair wash twice a week (with our super hot weather in S'pore, how can one endure not washing hair for more than 2 days?)

The other two in early 40s (a managing director - $240 monthly & a housewife whose husband is a banker - $800 monthly)

One of them even quoted: "Under no circumstances would I wash my own hair. I'll asked the salons to open extra early or extra late to accommodate my schedule." Hmm... I wonder why not hire a maid who knows how to do hairstyling??

It really got me thinking....there are people out there who are struggling just to have 3 meals a day & there are those who dont even know how to handle the hair GOD gave them.....?

Full Life

Last night while clearing some old newspaper, I came across this article:
Giving myself a makeover

Writer talked about a man struck twice by catastrophic accidents - reinvent himself.
Jim MacLaren is his name.
At age 22, he met w a motorbike accident & ended up w one leg amputated.
He didnt let that get him down.
Fitted w a false leg, he continue participating in sports that even most normal people like us find it tough to complete - swim 4km, run 42km & cycle 112km.
Not wonder he was known as Ironman athlete.

But God put him thru another test @ the age of 30.
While he was cycling in an Ironman race, he was hit by a van driven by an old man going in the wrong direction.

This time, he paralysed from the neck down.
MacLaren could have chosen to retreat into self-pity after he became a quadriplegic, he didnt. He didnt waste his time getting angry w other people if they either studiously avoided looking @ him or stared rudely @ him.

6 mths after he broke his neck, he was living on his own in an apartment & plotting how to reinvent himself to get on w the business of productive living.

Now he had set up a charity foundation, become a motivational speaker.

As he said: "What is a full life? Do I have to get there on foot? Or can I find some other path?"

For most of us (me especially) always complaining life is tough. But really, is life really that tough or we simply surrender w/o putting up a good fight? For me, I know my ans is the latter.

Article from ST 7 Sep 05 - Writer Keng Fatt

Rainy Morning

[ I love rainy day, be it morning, afternoon or night
[ I love the chill air in my face
[ I love the warm feeling underneath my clothes
[ I'm always in good mood when it rains
[ I don't understand why most people hate rainy day
[ Maybe that's part of the reason why I love London
[ It was towards the end of the rainy season
[ The road were constantly wet
[ We would hop-in to sideway cafe
[ Enjoyed a cup of hot drink
[ While watching the rest of the world passes-by

Torn

Torn is one of my fav song.
Torn was released in 97.
Torn was made famous by Natalie Imbruglia
Torn is the 5th song in Fantastic Females Album I bought in 99.
Torn's MTV is one of those I will never forget.
Torn is the song that's playing on the radio now.
Torn always remind me of the car accident on 22 March 03.
Torn brings flashback.

Arrgggggg...............................Torn Torn Torn

Dami's Injured Leg

Dami injured his leg while working in KL.
Poor thing, he returned home with swollen leg.
It must be really painful he almost couldn't walk.
He was already asleep when I got home last night after visiting Momo.

He went to work this morning for an important meeting.
Called him twice to go see doctor.
Don't know whether will he do it later or not.
Sometime he's too stubborn.
He would rather let it heal by itself, bearing all the pain......

Haizzz.....very worry.

Babe of the Year

To The World:

This is Little Momo - Minutes after birth.

She's the little princess in our family now.

She's so irresistible.

We are all crazy over her!

Hurt

Is it true what you DON'T know WON'T hurt you?

Who would want to be a FOOL?

I have two thoughts about it.

Ask someone who ever had unfaithful partner & when they discovered the truth, they would probably say they are glad to know the truth earlier so they can choose to move-on.

Then ask someone who ever had partner who left them w/o giving any reason, they would probably still wondering why? Thinking over & over again what had happened, what went wrong & continue searching for answers that they might never find.

Either way it hurt.

The one who know the truth might kept dwelling on the past & get stuck, the other who doesnt know what happened has lesser emotional burden to let go & move-on with life.

You might say it's the ATTITUDE that makes the difference.

I totally agree.

It's how we handle the 'HURT' feeling that decide whether we get stuck or we have closed a chapter in our lives & open a Brand new chapter.

I pray for my dear friend (u know who u are) that HOPE will replace HURT in no time.

p.s. And hurt is when you discovered all that you've typed got erased for no reason & have to re-key-in all over again!!!!

Kawai

Kawai is the word to describe my little niece.
My eyes got teary when I first saw her.
I get more & more emotional as I aged.

I carried her, I felt the warm.
I kept smiling to her.
I'm sure Momo & Hobbes are 100 times happier.

Though she's an average size kodomo, she certainly has powerful lungs.
Her cry is short, loud & sharp.
Jenny, Rara, VV & Sinful Man were there.
Kingkong & Natasha left earlier.

We're all so eager to take her pix.
HP camera, digital camera, video cam....
We even forward the pix to each other thru MMS.
Kawai is really the superstar.

Almost 8.30 we left for dinner.
Apple, Bearbear & Didi, we went Bt Timah Food Centre for dinner.
Saw Kenneth the agent but he didnt see me. He was busy looking around for food & talking on his mobile.
Then met Mr. & Mrs. Professional Pretentious Actors......sian!
Mrs. PPA's hair was so ugly.....My God!

New Family Member

14.09.2005 @ 2.13PM Weighing 3.21KG
My little niece arrived to our planet Earth.
Whole afternoon I have not mood to work. Looking @ how slowly the clock tick. I wanted to rush to the hospital to see her.

I'd a feeling she's going to be alot like her mommy since they are both Virgo. I've decided what to get her for her full month celebration - A gold bracelet -

Just sms the good news to Dami who is in KL working now. Told him I want our own baby badly.

Shared the happy news with Pucca & Meimei too. They are both very thrill too.

Momo said her daughter look like Hobbes. Hee...so funnie to see the mini version of Hobbes. She has the nose & lips of Momo though.

Bearbear should be reaching my office soon. Better go get ready to fly of to Mt. Alvernia Hospital.

Fatty

12 Jun 2004 was the 1st time we took Fatty to East Coast Park.
She was so happy & refused to stop running.
She went wild that day!

Momo's Baby aka My Niece

1. Apple called me saying that Momo is going to the hospital soon, I could feel my heart beats increased.
2. I thought I'm the only one who's excited but Bearbear proved me wrong. He's even worse! The minute he heard that Momo's going to the hospital, he told Apple "We shall all go to the hospital now, haha.
3. I've to calm him down by telling him that the doctor said Momo will probably only going to deliver tomorrow. But wanted her to check-in to the hospital early to prepare to delivery.
4. Anyway, the hospital charges start from 0:00 (unlike hotel which's 12:00, haha)
5. So it has proven Momo's theory is right & God answered to her prayer.
6. Momo has been talking to her baby, telling her "Daddy's going on business trip for 2 weeks. Come out soon before daddy leave so that daddy can see you before he leave for the trip"
7. Momo & Hobbes has be very spiritual. I know they have been praying faithfully.
8. Thank you God for blessing them.
9. I pray that Momo will have a smooth delivery.
10. I cant wait to see my little darling soon!
11. Baby......yi yi love you :)

Mobilisation

Dami got mobilised by the army this afternoon.
It's so funnie to see him trying to squeeze in his army trousers.
Once a upon a time (not too long ago) he used to brag that he'll not have beer belly, he won't become fat...but to his dismay he has indeed grown rounder. He kept saying "Oh no, I cant believe I cant button-up my trousers" "How dear, how? I'm fat now"
And I was jumping up & down with delight, now that he's 'fat' he has to stop calling me "ah fat", haha.

Breakfast @ Les Amis - Botanic Garden

Bright sunny morning.
Took a cab, pick-up C8 on the way to Botanic Garden.
Found a table immediately (so lucky), the whole cafe was crowded.
Both C8 & I were v hungry but we decided to wait for Momo.
9:10, no sight of Momo, called her & she said she just exited Stevens Rd.
After 20 mins she's no where to be found.
Fainting from hunger liao, got C8 to call her.
Only then we realised she went out the wrong exit & ended in Bt Timah.
** f-a-i-n-t **
Momo is already quite blur b4 she got pregnant.
Now she's forgetful & clumsy & more blur....haha.
Wonder would I be like her when I'm pregnant?
Hopefully it won't run in the family, hee.

We decided to meet for breadfast partly because C8 missed Fatty too much.
Momo said since she needs to walk Fatty, we might as well get some fresh air too :)
Fatty got so much attention from both kids & adult.
Those kids we met there were different from those in hawker centre (not been discriminating or what).
1st of all, they don't run about screaming/shouting @ the top of their lungs.
2nd, they asked permission before they stroke Fatty.
They even say 'thank you' after that. I'm truely amazed!
Why is it that they behaved differently?
Could it be their parents (some kids are mixed), could it be the school they attend (they speak with an accent; suggesting that they might be attending International School)

PuccA arrived much earlier than I expected.
She only have cappuccino cos she's saving her stomach for Japanese Buffet Lunch w her frenz.
After breadfast, we let C8 walk Fatty.
Can tell she's having a great time doing that.
As we slowly strolled @ the garden, we saw many people having picnic & some kind of celebration.

We decided to do it again next time.
But I guess we'll have to wait till Momo complete her 1st month of confinement.

Bad Headache

I'd a terrible headache this morning.
Guess it's because the aircon in the office is not chill enough.
It was cool until some of the staff complaint too cold & requested the temperature to be adjusted up.
But instead of adjusting the temperature (which the tech said cannot), he closed all the valves.
Goodness me, it's killing me.
I'm like in sauna! Then this morning it got worse, I developed a terrible headache.
My boss asked me to go off early so I left w PuccA. She's unwell too.

Today is Meimei's sis ROM. She left together w us.
There was a big huha when she was trying to take leave for today......
Meimei said they will be going to Altivo after the ceremony for a celebration.
Think she must be having fun now!

Busy blogging & at the same time chatting w PuccA on MSN.
She's troubled. Poor girl.
I'm sharing w her my point of view.
PuccA deserve to be happy. I know she'll find her happiness one day.

Tmr momo, C8, PuccA n me are going to have breakfast @ Botanical Garden.
Momo is going to bring fatty too. We are all excited to play with her.
Dami adored her too. He always smile when mentioned fatty.
Both my MIL & FIL likes her too.

Had sting ray twice in the week.
Bearbear & apple went JB to collect rent.
When they returned, apple called to ask me to join them for dinner.
We went to bearbear fav c/shop in J.West. After dinner, bearbear drove me home. Silly me left my keys in his car & he has to make a big round to pass it back to me....Sorry bearbear.

Today is KHH & Sleepy 3 years ROM anniversary.
Heard from apple they are going out for celebration.
I'm happy to hear that.
KHH booked chalet tmr but I think I won't be going.
I hope he won't mind me not going.

Saw the ad. on TV Mobile this afternoon while travelling home.
HDB new flat balloting for areas: Bt Merah, Geylang, Q.Town, T.Payoh.
Sms Didi & T-shirt. But T-shirt replied didi only 1 flat in Jurong area so to be close to apple.....

Yummy Soup

'I know what it's like to be broke.
I used to busk on the street, which is really just begging w a guitar'
- Actor Russell Crowe

C8 invited me & momo to her place for her mom's delicious soup.
Her mom brew the soup using charcoal so can u imagine how yummy it is?
Soup of the day is Black Chicken Soup with Dang Shen (a kind of herb).

C8's mom also prepared bee hoon & bought otah for dinner.
She's really a fantastic host.

Prata reached later declaring that the colleague whom she likes left the company.
When C8 asked for his name, she acted secretive.
Sometime I dont understand y Prata like to share things 1/2 way & stop.
I suspect she wants attention. She likes the feeling of keeping people in suspense & ask her to continue.

For me, I dont like to ask. If she wants to tell me, she will. If she doesnt ask also no use.
Maybe that's the reason why we have distant abit cos unlike other friends who would keep asking her to tell more & blah blah blah.

Dami's out. Not too happy with him going from Orchard to Tanjong Pagar to Sembawang to meet friends. Always say got things to discuss. Yet doesnt want to tell me when ask. Xian.

Dinner @ Newton Circle

After seeing Master @ Parklane yesterday, I went Newton to have dinner w my bearbear, apple, didi & momo.

Bearbear feels stress to sit near those seafood stall & not ordering from them.
So we took a longer time to get a table which is in front of a drink & satay stall.
I told bearbear that we don't to be bothered by those people but he just doesnt like it.

I was craving for sting ray the minute bearbear said to have dinner there.
However, bearbear thinks that the standard there isnt as good as the one @ J.West.

Poor Momo was perspiring like crazy!
When I got home I was tired like a piece of dead meat.
But I still managed to watch my fav, CSI Miami.

5 Elements in Life

Last evening went to see a Master specialize in 5 Elements @ Parklane w PuccA.
This Master supposed to be quite popular, in order to make an appointment to see him, u have book him 1 month in advance.

Do u believe in 5 Elements in Life?
Do u believe luck can be created by placing some jade & crystal stuff in your bedroom & wallet?
Is it only the hopeless & helpless will turn to it for a sense of hope?

I don't know does it really work or is it because after u believe it will work, your approach towards life & challenges are different & therefore results are better than before?
But I'm definitely not hopeless or helpless to turn to him.
I just hope it will bring better luck so my GOOD life can be BETTER.

I don't really like the idea of fortune telling but I don't checking the 5 Elements in my life that will benefit or affect me.

The Master said my life element is Fire.
But because I'm born @ the end of winter, my Fire is not strong enough to melt the gold that's present in my this life.
I was told to avoid the colour Blue because it symbolise ocean which is bad for my not so strong Fire. So no blue clothing, blue bedsheet for 1 year...Oh my God! Blue's my fav colour!

I'm Blessed. Thank God.

• So many things to say, so little time.
• Worried if I don't blog what happened today, I may forget about it tomorrow.
• Late for work this morning!
• Went HDB Branch office to purchase Dami's season parking.
• I know I should have done it on Sat but I was too lazy I woke up late.
• Walked to GWC during lunch time.
• Saw 2 indians sitting on the floor next to the monsoon drain having lunch.
• At that moment, I felt blessed.
• Because I saw what they had for lunch.
• 1 big pack of white rice & a pack of curry gravy without veg or meat.
• And me, not only I can have my lunch in a comfortable environment with aircon, I have good food.
• Really, what is there to complain about?
• Envious those who carry Prada, stay in condo? Nah, life is already good when all basic are provided.
• PuccA in low mood today. I can understand why she felt this way.
• I wish I can do more for her but I know what she wants is not my solution; she just needed someone to share her frustration.
• Maybe I would be like her when I'm faced with the problems she's facing, I don't know.
• At this moment, I can only pray that God will give her strength to fight the on-going corporate battle.
• After work, went to shop for a wedding gift for a colleague.
• Spent almost an hour searching for the right gift & right price.
• Managed to get it from Card n Such eventually.
• When MOS for dinner. Wanted to check out the new restaurant call Pepper something, but thought the price is abit on the high side.
• I'm beginning to wonder did 105 became an Express bus.
• A different driver from yesterday drove as fast.
• At every bus stop, he sure over-shoot.
• Hmmm....why should I complain when I can get home sooner?
• Got home, found out that Dami's 2nd aunty (Dami's mum's sister) passed away.
• I felt sad. She's a nice lady. Although I don't know her that well in person, Dami's mum always tell me about her.
• She has been in pain for along time.
• Operated more than dozen times.
• Just moved to Hospice 2 days ago.
• I was telling my MIL that hospice is usually the last place before a patient goes to heaven & MIL agreed. Not knowing so soon God has called her home.
• Long time never hear from LaLa liao. Sms her this morn to catch up w her.
• She said she's 7 mths pregnant.
• I'd mixed feelings, really.
• On 1 hand I'm happy for her. I know she tried very hard to get conceive too.
• On the other hand, I'm upset, why is it not me?
• Sometime I'm in dilema. I felt so defected that I want to quit try for 1.
• Then again I thought, I'm only 32, I have 3 more years to try.
• If I give up now, I would be childless for the rest of my life.
• Then I won't be able to know how our child would look like.
• Dami came home early tonight.
• He'd discussion with his business partners @ Bedok before that.
• He has decided to quit his job tomorrow.
• I know he's excited & worried @ the same time.
• But whatever it is, he'll have my full support.
• Feeling zombie le. Think it's time to go zzzzzzzzz.
• Life is great! I love my life.
• Thank God & good night!

I'm Alive

1. Gym - Felt really good to go back to gym again. It's as if I have found my lost love. The good feelings returned instantly. Being back for the 1st time after 2 months of 'break' I went easy on myself. I'm sure I'll sleep very well tonight :)

2. Food - I'd fattening food today for lunch. Roast duck noodle @ Lucky Plaza. After finishing what was served together with the noodle, I was still unsatisfied, I ordered another drumstick. Later on I felt really really guilty. I know if I want to lose weight I should avoid food like this. I'll try hard tomorrow! I promised.

3. Too Fast Too Furious - Travelling @ 110 to 120 km/hr you must be thinking I took a cab home tonight? Wrong! It's bus no. 105. The driver drove as if he's driving a sport car. He speed, he cut lane like nobody's business & he sound the honk every few minutes. If that's not bad enough, well there's more. He practically accelerate even though it's approaching the bus stop. And when the bus almost reached the bus stop, he jammed brake & instead of stopping next to the bus stop, he stopped outside the divider.

The only reason I could think of is that he's having a really bad stomache that he needs to go to the loo before he let go of everything, haha.

4. People From The Train - So weird, I met the guy I saw in MRT this morning while travelling to work. He was having dinner @ the coffeeshop next to my block. Then @ the letter box area, I met a couple whom I shared the same train with 1 week ago. I never would have thought these people are staying in my neighbourhood!

5. Courage - Read an interesting article while having my dinner @ Picnic Food Court just now. Quote from the author:

• Courage means being open to change, when change is a possibility
• Courage is not necessarily the absence of fear; it's the willingness to act despite fear, the ability to fake bravery until it starts to stick

The author is very much like me. She's a routine woman. She's fear of changing her ways. Everyday she has the same bagel @ the same cafe. And the idea of not doing this fills her with dread.

So that's also partly the reason why I rarely plan any programs on weekend. I prefer to have my routine weekend of breakfasts, papers, t.v. programs & lots of sleep. But on the contrary I resent a dull & boring life...hence I'm sometime confused what I really want in life.

Return to Gym

It has been almost 2 months since I stopped going to gym.
At 1st I thought after quitting gym, I would faithfully jog @ my neighbourhood park or do yoga @ home while watching T.V. But I failed!

I was like a lost soul every evening, not knowing what to do.
I made plans to go home & exercise but being a 'Sleeping' beauty how could I resist my bed when I see it?

I practically dive into my bed the moment I got home. Refused to do anything except for shower which most of the time I have to drag myself to do it.

After much struggle, I know I can't carry on living like this.
I call up my gym to have my membership reinstated.

I'm so looking forward to gym this evening :)

Today I Started Blogging

Phew, after much difficulties, I finally set-up my own blog.

I enjoyed reading other people's blog. Although I don't know them in person (for some) after reading their blog it's as if I have known them for a long time.

I hope if anyone by chance get to see my blog will get to know the 'real' me too.

Today's dad's co. family day @ Downtown East. As expected the place was crowded with people. Normally I would prefer to avoid places with huge crowd. But I went because I know how much my dad want us to be there. Anyhow, we did have fun :)

The queue for food were very long. Each queue has at least 100+ to 200 people. Fortunately I discovered a way to shorten the waiting time which is to get food vouchers that allowed us to collect the food directly for the stall instead of queueing & wait for them to deliver.

Mom & dad were happy to see that we returned with food within such a short time. One of dad's colleague waited for almost an hour to get his food. So poor thing.

Family day should be a day for the staff to chill-out & have fun. Yet they ended having to queue for almost everything from food to game to getting into Wet Wet Wild. Haiz....

Momo & Hobbes were there with us too. We all had lunch together.
Momo said she's due to deliver anytime next week! It's 2 weeks in advance for me to be officially titled as Aunty!

I think my boss would be thrilled to know that because he has been calling me aunty & now it gives him a better reason to do so. So no way I am going to tell him!

Dad was excited about his new toy, Sony Digital Camera!
Didi bought for him. He took it out every few minutes to snap our pix.

Got sms from PuccA saying that there'll be a change of date to BKK.
I'm ok with it unless it's not on the week of my Dami's birthday.

Hee...Dami came in awhile ago, looking @ what I'm doing.
I didn't explain to him just simply told him "I'm doing my stuff" & he left the room looking puzzled, haha!

December is only 3 months away! I'm getting excited!
I love Christmas.
I don't know whether is it just me, I always feel that people are nicer, warmer & more forgiving during this period of time.

Wonder when will the X'mas deco be up this year? Last year the deco was up as early as end Oct. Only if it snow in Singapore! It would be perfect.

Last year I gave PuccA a cocktail set including a cocktail book. Hmmmm... I still waiting for her to fix me a drink.

Oh, it's getting late. I better go take my shower & get ready to catch my favourite show CSI @ 10.